The end is near

I can't believe I'm now in the home stretch...I can see the forcasted schedule and I'm on it and I think--hah, I'm flying out to NYC that day! Or, That's the first day of school! I'm working up the nerve to write my letter of resignation--and what to say.

I'm off for three nights but I'm off to a bad start. The heat and my mind have conspired to keep me awake later and later every day, and this means I get less and less sleep, since I'm not sleeping in any longer. Today, I went to bed at two in the afternoon (like the last three days) but I got up at 4:00. I went out for a burger with G, and when I came home, I basically konked out on the couch until midnight, when G went to sleep. Such is the life of a night nurse. We ALL say this kind of stuff "went out for dinner, came home, konked out on the couch..." it's what we all say/do.

I can't wait for this night work experience to be over. The only thing that's kept me from utter desperation has been the thought that it is temporary. I like the sun, I like having friends, and doing things like shopping, and eating. I hate waking up long after everything has closed, and everyone has gone to bed for the night.

I'm extending my work (not making the 8th my last day) because I have only worked 32 hour weeks (not including overtime etc) and I'm not sure Columbia will count this as "full time" so I'm adding another week to my 50, in hopes they won't hassle me too much.

The house is still a disaster--boxes are starting to be made, and piles of stuff I need to ship to myself seem to be in every room.

I have a million things I need to be doing, including studying the $500 worth of critical care lectures on computer DVDs, but I can't seem to get my energy level up in order to get stuff ready, clean the house, organize my stuff--being awake at night sucks.

Next week is my needle biopsy, and the week after I have echocardiograms and stress-echocardiograms...I still need to get the car tuned up, and go to the dentist, and see my neurologist.

(sigh)
So what am I doing blogging?!